Tiring moments
Sometimes you will wonder what the purpose of us being in this world is. Everyday you will see people dying, new born babies, people getting sick. Have you ever wonder why things kept happening around you and what will you feel. I have came to a point in my life where I kept on thinking what is the main purpose of God giving me this life and what does he wants me to learn in this world. We laugh, we cry, we face heart breaks and see people leaving us. It makes me see how tiring a person life is. Recently, I found that there are a few people around me who have cancer. It’s really heart breaking, where you find out that the people who are dear to you are having such hard time. Sometimes it will make me wonder…… What did this people did in order to get them into this situation. Do they really deserve it? But why them? And why not those people who are out there who really deserves all these punishments? Why do good people have to get sick and face with these entire difficult situations, while people who always go around hurting people are still happily doing what they are doing and nothing happen to them? Don’t you think this is a bit unfair?
I have been thinking about this for the whole day and I have come to this point that I am really tired. Not to say physically tired, but mentally I am really tired. Tired of??? Well, I can say that I am really tired of work, tired of the people being fake around me, tired of not being treated fairly and appreciated, and tired of taking care of everyone around. I mean, I am also a human being, I too need a break and need someone to love, care and be there to support me whenever I wanted. It that too much to ask for?
One of my friend told me that he had stomach cancer, another subordinate of mine also have cancer and she is now lying in the hospital, and recently I only found out that another girl friend of my had lung cancer. What is happening around? I mean these people are all really nice and what did they do to deserve all these? Don’t you think it’s a bit unfair? Sometimes it makes you wonder. We always care about what we eat, how we live our live, but then things like that happen to you. What can we say about it? We can’t do anything but to face with the reality and fight against it. But WHY?
I talked to one of my friend the other. He was asking me, what is the purpose of us working our ass up everyday and making ourselves burned out, but there are people out there who just does not need to be like our situation and they are so happy with their life and they can just have anything that they wanted. Do you think this is fair? All of us worked hard in order to make living, and it’s really disappointing when you find out that of all the time that you are working hard, no one actually appreciated it. Well I know, some of you will say that, we do things for ourselves, but not for others. But then, won’t you be thinking, why are we going through all these?
Oh, I just resigned recently, and I was really sad and disappointed when I found out that people can just be so fake. They stop talking to you, they treat you like you are transparent, while all these time, and you were being friendly to everyone around you. Well at least I know who my true friends are around. Those who are you true friend will never change. I am just getting really tired. With all these work issues, friends get sick, people betraying you…. When is it going to stop? Why is so hard to be nice to people? Why can’t people just be sincere and be straight forward? Isn’t it hard to pretend all the time? It’s just too tiring to handle all these things. Friend, just one advice. Just be yourself and don’t pretend to be someone who you are not. It’s just too tiring.
